Whoa. Whoa. WHOA. I am undone. I am so messed up. The Lord is calling me deeper, higher. I have counted the cost. It will cost everything. Every imagination I have had for what I should or shouldn't be must die.
For several months I have been pressing in for the Ezekiel mantle. He was the most visual prophet along with being a watchman. In his thirtieth year the heavens were opened and he saw visions of God. That is the cliff notes.
Turning 29 recently I have felt the Lord was still preparing me. I see those younger that have already begun to step into destiny and sometimes I would feel behind the curve or discouraged. Things are beginning to make so much sense and yet I haven't a clue what is before me. I just know it is bigger than me and I can take no credit for what He will do.
I have been very concious that three of my favorite people in the Bible really stepped into major seasons of their purpose at 30; David, Ezekiel, and my Bridegroom King aka Jesus. The world would tell me that I should be settling down now, starting a family. I do have a new family just not what others may have had in mind.
The Lord is shaking me and just like an apple tree some stuff is falling to the ground but there is fruit that remains and that is what He is after.
I got a really hard word last week. The kind of word that confirms that still small voice. He has called me to a life of abandonment to Him. He must be my Onething. That is the only option. My life is not my own...really takes the pressure off.
I'm not saying I'm joining a convent although the thought has occurred more than once to my mother. I just know that there is a radical price for the desires of my heart. He gave all, how could I do any less.
Below is a word from Misty Edwards. It was an unbelievable confirmation to me of what was being whispered to my heart.....
For the hour is urgent !!SOUND THE ALARM For if the sheperd sees the coming terror anddoes not say something the blood is on theirhands! God says"I am raising up sheperds who are after my heart. I amraising up speaherds who know the times and the seasons.I am raising up sheperds a voice in this wilderness and time!will you be a friend of the bridegroom? will you be a friend ofthe judge? Will you not be ashamed! THE HOUR IS URGENT!! and i NEED you!!! Will you be a VOICE?Will you lay down your life? Will you be a messanger? Will yoube a forerunner? Will you lay down your life for the sheep? QUIT FOOLING AROUND!!! THE HOUR IS URGENT!! QUITDAYDREAMING!!!The hour is urgent and I AM COMING. Im gonna shake everythingthat can be shaken!! Im gonna turn the world UPSIDE DOWN! I needyou to prepare the way! The EARTH IS ASLEEP,they dont know that im coming,they dont believe that IM ALIVE!!will you sound the alarm?? I am coming!!WAKE UP MY SLEEPING BRIDE, WAKE UP MY SLEEPING CHURCH!!THE HOUR IS SHORT!! YOU DONT HAVE TIME TO WASTE! EAT THESCROLL! WILL YOU LAY DOWN YOUR LIFE IN THIS WILDERNESS ANDTIME??Will you lay down your life to be a voice?! I need a friend of the bridegroom.Will you lay down your life for my glory!I am coming!! Do you believe it? If you believe it WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DOABOUT IT? This is not a game, this is not fake!! I am alive! Will you be afriend of the judge? Will you be ashamed of me in that day or will you standand proclaim my beauty?I am coming! It may be 5 years! I am coming, will you give five years to focus?Will you eat the scroll! Stop wasteing away! Stop fooling around! Stop thefairytale! I need a friend! Will you be a voice? Will you sound the alarm?Will you take time to get understanding?THE HOUR IS URGENT!! THEREFORE WATCH!! DO YOU BELIEVE ME?WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO ABOUT? DO YOU WANT TO BE A FRIENDOF THE BRIDEGROOM? TAKE THE SCROLL AND EAT IT! bE READY, YOUDONT KNOW WHEN IM COMING TAKE MY WORD DIGEST IT,LIVE IT BREATHE IT,i have need of you! are you for me or are you against me? I've seen thesencerity! I've seen the yes of your heart but i want maturity, i need maturity.I will give you so much grace! Im about to open up the heavens, im aboutto pour out the spirit of prophecy like never before. Im going to give youso much grace to fast, to pray, to lay down your life, to eat the scrollall you have to do is say yes and persevere and dont QUIT. All you've got todo is press on. I will give so much grace to those who want to stand with me.Do you want to stand in my counsel? I'll take you there!! Im about to pour out the spirit with dreams and visions and visitations!Will you persevere when the people come to mock you? Will you perseverewhen they call you foolish! Will you persevere when your family betraysyou? Will you persevere when your loved ones turn away!!will you be my friend? Will you overcome as i have overcome? The houris urgent!! I'll give you a grace, i'll give you rest of mind! I really meant itwhen i said take up your cross.how far will you go? how much do you want? how hungry are you? Willyou be a friend of the bridegroom because the hour is truly urgent!!
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Dreams, Visions, & Encounters....Oh My!
I have been a bit slack concerning my blog. Not to make excuses but my mind has been completely blown and trying to capture thoughts has been challenging.
I guess I should rewind a ways and explain exactly how I arrived at this wonderful place. I 've known since December I was to be a part of IHOP Cartersville. I made arrangements to attend a Harp and Bowl in January. There was an ice storm that day. It seemed all hell broke loose at that point and I was delayed several months.
So, like we sometimes do I figured the Lord must have different plans for me. Many doors began to open for ministry and going to the nations, things were falling into place quickly. It just had to be God, or not. No matter what opportunities came about or how grand they seemed in the eyes of man something was not right. I went through three months of miserable growth. Inside I knew something was off. I was out of place. I tried really hard to fit into the mold that others thought was mine. As voices encouraged me to GO and DO and BE this big time minister I felt the Lord wooing me and calling me to wait upon Him.
Wait. Wait on Me. "Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord." It became the running theme of my quiet time.
I had a radical dream of being on a night watch at IHOP Cartersville and the heavens opened and angels were dancing over me. Very much a Jacob's ladder kind of thing. It looked like the northern lights in the middle of the prayer room. I knew then I HAD to be a part of this house. I told Mary about my dream and she was like so your gonna do the internship. It was not a question. I of course balked at the notion and committed to part time prayer room hours. That was early July. The first day of the internship arrived (August 17) and we were leaving DC after The Call. Mary pulled me aside before we hit the road and by the time I got in the van I was an intern. Let me add that only that morning I was almost in tears telling Foster how much I would have loved to do it but I had prayed and told the Lord if He wanted me to that He would have to work it out. How often we must make our Daddy giggle.
Now, I am wrecked and ruined for anything but Him. I've always been a "seer" but my goodness do I see. I am having the time of my life. How do you even convey such revolutionary encounters with the True and Living God. The Creator of the Universe is rocking my paradigm. I am experiencing the suddenlies I've only read about. I don't even recognize who I am or will be or once was. It's awesome. I'm so messed up. I can't continue I need to go worship.
I guess I should rewind a ways and explain exactly how I arrived at this wonderful place. I 've known since December I was to be a part of IHOP Cartersville. I made arrangements to attend a Harp and Bowl in January. There was an ice storm that day. It seemed all hell broke loose at that point and I was delayed several months.
So, like we sometimes do I figured the Lord must have different plans for me. Many doors began to open for ministry and going to the nations, things were falling into place quickly. It just had to be God, or not. No matter what opportunities came about or how grand they seemed in the eyes of man something was not right. I went through three months of miserable growth. Inside I knew something was off. I was out of place. I tried really hard to fit into the mold that others thought was mine. As voices encouraged me to GO and DO and BE this big time minister I felt the Lord wooing me and calling me to wait upon Him.
Wait. Wait on Me. "Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord." It became the running theme of my quiet time.
I had a radical dream of being on a night watch at IHOP Cartersville and the heavens opened and angels were dancing over me. Very much a Jacob's ladder kind of thing. It looked like the northern lights in the middle of the prayer room. I knew then I HAD to be a part of this house. I told Mary about my dream and she was like so your gonna do the internship. It was not a question. I of course balked at the notion and committed to part time prayer room hours. That was early July. The first day of the internship arrived (August 17) and we were leaving DC after The Call. Mary pulled me aside before we hit the road and by the time I got in the van I was an intern. Let me add that only that morning I was almost in tears telling Foster how much I would have loved to do it but I had prayed and told the Lord if He wanted me to that He would have to work it out. How often we must make our Daddy giggle.
Now, I am wrecked and ruined for anything but Him. I've always been a "seer" but my goodness do I see. I am having the time of my life. How do you even convey such revolutionary encounters with the True and Living God. The Creator of the Universe is rocking my paradigm. I am experiencing the suddenlies I've only read about. I don't even recognize who I am or will be or once was. It's awesome. I'm so messed up. I can't continue I need to go worship.
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