Desperation

Behold God is great and we do not know Him. Behold God is great.



"Anyone contemplating the life of Jesus needs to be newly and more deeply aware every day that something impossible, something scandalous has occurred: that God, in His absolute Being, has resolved to manifest Himself in a human life (and is in a position to make this resolve effective!) He must be scandalized by this, he must feel his mind reeling, the very ground giving way beneath his feet; he must at least experience that "ecstasy" of non-comprehension which transported Jesus' contemporaries." -Von Balthasar, Hans Urs Prayer



Do what? Yeah, exactly! God is great and we do not know Him! Oh, how aware I am of this fact! Jesus! Holy Spirit, help me!!!! I must have a spirit of wisdom and revelation. Reveal Yourself to me. I am desperate to know You.



I spend over 50 hours a week in the prayer room, no where near enough. After 8 weeks I am only now beginning to get acclimated. Only now am I beginning to be purged on a deeper level. Only now am I even capable of understanding that I don't understand anything. I need insight and understanding. I am desperate to know You.



I am a man of unclean lips. Bring your burning coal and touch my lips. Cleanse me.



"I confess, Lord, with thanksgiving, that you have made me in your image, so that I can remember you, think of you, and love you. But that image is so worn and blotted out by faults, and darkened by the smoke of sin, that it cannot do that for which it was made, unless you renew and refashion it. Lord I desire to understand your truth which my heart already believes and loves. I do not seek to understand so that I can believe, but I believe so that I may understand; and what is more, I believe that unless I do believe, I shall not understand." - Anselm of Canterbury



Oh, the blood of Jesus that has washed me white as snow. Purified me. Made me righteous. Made me Holy. How great the chasm between where I am now in my revelation and where I am seated with You in heavenly places. I am desperate to know You.


I wish I could literally feed myself on the Word intravenously. He is so much more fantastically amazing than my brain can comprehend. I need more language to even describe where I am right now. I want intimacy with the Creator of the Universe. My desire is for Him and His for me. How is that possible? I am desperate to know You!!!!!!